A doctors no cannot compete with God’s yes. So father I’m pleading, praying, begging that you’ll heal her. How do I go on without her? How can I just move to California knowing that she’s here? How can I do any of this shit. This is so fucked up. She doesn’t deserve this. We don’t deserve this. I love my granny so much. More than anything in this world. It’s killing me. Talking about bringing in hospice man. I don’t know what to do with myself right now.